Well, it's 9:45 on Saturday night and everyone is in bed :) And I'm sitting on the family room floor having a cocktail and sorting through a bunch of cd's that I burned when I still lived at home (some of them I made when I was in high school). I know it sounds totally lame, but, I am having a blast. None of the cd's are labeled other than one or two songs (because somehow I thought that would make me remember every other song that's on there). Every song is making me think of being in high school or when husband and I were first dating and married and we went out and did whatever we wanted when we felt like it. It's funny to look back and remember how much fun we used to have. Don't get me wrong, I love where we are now with our family. But, it used to be soooo great when we could go out to dinner or go out with friends and have a few beers and watch husband's band play. Or go up to Grand Rapids and spend the weekend with my brother in law and his wife or go down to Indy and visit our friends that live just outside of the city. It's amazing the things I took for granted then that are almost impossible to do now. I am far from regretful of the direction my life has gone because we are so very blessed with our girls. But, I look back at how simple our life used to be and it makes me a little sad that we don't have our life anymore. Just me and husband.
Do you ever have one of those days where you question if you're doing a good job parenting? That is how this day has been for me. Talking calmly to noodle hasn't worked, bargaining hasn't worked, yelling hasn't worked. These days are so aggravating! Thankfully, lizard is always good (for now). These are the days where I feel like all I do is look at the clock hoping husband has an early day (never happens). Most days that start off like this normally don't stay like this. So all I can do for now is pray and wait for the tide to turn.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank goodness husband is home with me the next two days, because, they are going to be long ones. In an attempt to talk up being a big girl (and big girls don't use pahi's) I, excuse me, Poppa had the idea that she could have a dum dum sucker. So far that seems to be working. She's on her third sucker today :) and I don't even care right now. We'll see how long this lasts.
Friday night husband, noodle, lizard, and I are sitting in the family room and I happen to pick up noodle's pacifier. And as I'm looking at it I notice that inside of the latex there is a lot of crap and food particals floating around in there. In total disgust, I tell noodle how gross it is and that we really should throw it in the garbage. Now, we've been somewhat working on getting rid of it because she looks ridiculous with it. So I really didn't think she would go along with this idea. To mine and husbands surprise she says ok. She then walks all by herself and throws away the pacifier. She very proudly walked back to us and had us go and look at it in the garbage. We played up the rest of the night, then, how proud we were of her for being such a big girl and she'll get a special treat and so on. An hour later we're getting ready for bed and she burst into tears saying 'pink pahi (pa-hee) baby puppy!'. The next two and a half hours this is all I heard. She finally goes to sleep and I'm somewhat optimistic that when she wakes up in the morning she'll have forgetten about her pink pahi. Well that was just a pipe dream. Within five minutes of being up she started asking for her pahi. And today was going much better up until about thirty minutes ago. She took lizards pahi and wouldn't give it back. So, as punishment, I told her that we needed to pack up the toys that Grammy bought her this morning and we were going to take them back to Kohl's. I walked around with a bag and we gathered up all the little pieces that go along with it. Once we had everything in the bag I gave her one more chance. She thought for a minute and still wouldn't give it back. I then started walking towards the mudroom and she finally gave it back. I under estimate the fact that, like me, she's a taurus and two can play that game. I think this transition will take longer than what I originally thought.
My Mom and two of my sisters have recently started blogging so thought I might give it a shot as well. I am 25 years old. I have been married to my husband for 4 1/2 years and we have two gorgeous girls. My oldest is 2 1/2 (i'll refer to her as 'noodle') and we have a 4 month old ( i'll refer to her as 'lizard'). Noodle is the first grandchild on my side of the family, so you can imagine how it went over when another baby came into the picture. After about two months she finally accepted the fact that lizard was here to stay. And she has been crazy about her ever since.
I was a hairdresser at a salon here in town until September when I decided to start maternity leave and have two months at home with my girl before my other girl arrived. That was the best decision I could have made. We had a blast, to say the least. The second best decision I made was to be a stay at home mom. I am very fortunate to have a husband who can support us and make that a possibility. I love being home with my girls! At the same time I do miss seeing my clients and having that social outlet with other adults. I think that is also why I decided to give blogging a try...something I can do for me and have contact with other adults (even if it is just over the internet). As much as I did love my job, being a mom was the job I was born to do. Since I was eight years old I have wanted to grow up, get married, and have babies. And, funnily enough, I was eight years old when I first laid eyes on my husband. Never in a million years did I think I would really marry my childhood crush. Funny how life works out :) I have three sisters, one of which is a twin, and the best parents in the world. Did I mention how blessed I am? They all live within five miles of me, which is great. I'm very close with all of them; my Mom and my twin especially. Husband doesn't understand how I can talk to them four times in one day and still have something to say to them five minutes after getting off the phone.
I'm new to this so it might take me a little while to get the hang of it. Be patient with me (i'll get the hang of it eventually). Well, I should wrap this up because it's going on one o'clock in the morning and the girls will be up normal time whether I am or not. Goodnight!